i've been going through a phase where i really, really want to believe in god and the bible and all that crap, but obviously i still believe it is all crap or i wouldn't have written that.
i've read genesis and am making my way through exodus but it keeps making less sense to me the more i study it, rather than more like many of the born agains claim it will. i cannot even fathom how people living in 2009 could possibly believe in this stuff, which is unnerving because so many people believe in it and i want to be able to understand too.
basically every non-atheist i've talked to about religion stresses how important religion and their belief in whatever god is to them. my mom once told me that living your life without god is sad, because sometimes you need there to be one. i think that's definitely true. which is why the human mind finds it attractive to believe in them. but spirituality? what compels people to do things in the name of god, sometimes beautiful, wonderful works of art or even really terrible violent acts.
i want to know and understand. but actually i think it's more about believing. religion is fascinating.
...this is how i procrastinate now. wow, college.